Funny how life works...or at least funny how my life seems to work. Today I am leaving for New York and this trip represents so much more than a holiday. I am going to Camp GLP (Good Life Project) and I have wanted to go to this camp since listening to a podcast over two years ago when they first launched this camp. It became my dream to go - I was sold on the vision of spending 3 and a half days with people from around the world.
And the Universe made a way for it to happen - a good financial option and even one of my wonderful soul sisters to go with. I really invested in this trip and as I said, today is the day I fly to NY.
But why have I had the craziest toughest week in a long long time? Firstly, since Friday my dog Maggie has been ill. I have two children and have experienced illness - but a dog throwing up every two hours and having diarrhoea for several days..that has been tough. I have been woken up to go outside with her (every two hours for several nights) plus trying to work with her ill and also on no sleep is pretty impossible.
Secondly, my body of course reacted from lack of sleep and I have a very painful mouth ulcer. I saw my dentist yesterday and only time can heal it (together with some antiseptic cream I am supposed to put on twice a day but gag when I put the syringe in my mouth).
I am hormonal and now my period has started - just perfect timing for a few days by a lake and swimming. I also have an upset stomach and nausea on top.
So overall, nothing feels great. I certainly don't feel excited about getting on a plane this evening.
It did get me thinking about WHY - why when I wanted this trip so badly, why when I had invested a lot of money into it, do I have the craziest week ever before I go?
I believe it is fear. Inside this trip scares the hell out of me. An introvert going to stay in a cabin with 9 other women for 3 nights. How will I cope with my jet lag and need for space? And at a higher level, I need to deal with the fact that I don't see myself as "creative soul, entrepreneur and change maker" and that this is maybe were the resistance is coming from. I feel like I am going to a party where all the others are legitimately there and I have sneaked in.
My message here is that fear can do crazy things. I am aware of this feeling and am going to walk head first into the next few days and do something that scares me - and makes me feel very alive. We are often thrown challenges and given obstacles to climb over to get to where we really want to be.
Time to finish off some work, pack and then head off to New York (cue...singing...which ever New York song you prefer and makes your heart sing)
On a journey to live the best sparkling life possible. Brit living in Denmark, mum to two amazing little people, Navy girlfriend, jazz lover, exploring yoga, buddhism and living healthy.