Yesterday I arrived home from my first summer camp experience in the US. I wanted to share my story and experiences and in a separate blog post I will get more into the "aha" moments I had from a business perspective, tools I want to share and what really inspired me. This is about how I experienced camp.
Background and also to answer the question on why I went to Camp GLP (Good Life Project) - since 2011, I have been listening to Jonathan Fields interview people as part of his vision to create a "Good Life Project" and every interview has inspired and challenged me. So when I first heard about Camp GLP in 2014, I said to myself, I want to go there one day. A wonderful friend went last year and when she came back from camp, I signed up to go with her this summer.
The Adventure: I left home last week feeling so depleted. My dog had been ill and I had had such little sleep. Plus I was full of fear - of trying something new, going to a new place etc. And so off I went to New York, feeling pretty apprehensive. There was a part of me that was also excited, after all I would get to see one of my real life heroes in person.
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It was also hard - I am not going to write this blog post without the whole story of my weekend.
An experience like this changes you. I have new friends, new ways of looking at life, new ideas to implement in my business and belief that something can be scary and fill you with fear but will be ok...even if it feels very different to how you thought it would be.
I saw people dressed up as Unicorns, people dancing like no one was watching, people sharing their stories, standing up on stage at the Talent show and giving it their all....I saw love in so many shapes and forms this weekend. All part of a Good Life.
Funny how life works...or at least funny how my life seems to work. Today I am leaving for New York and this trip represents so much more than a holiday. I am going to Camp GLP (Good Life Project) and I have wanted to go to this camp since listening to a podcast over two years ago when they first launched this camp. It became my dream to go - I was sold on the vision of spending 3 and a half days with people from around the world.
And the Universe made a way for it to happen - a good financial option and even one of my wonderful soul sisters to go with. I really invested in this trip and as I said, today is the day I fly to NY.
But why have I had the craziest toughest week in a long long time? Firstly, since Friday my dog Maggie has been ill. I have two children and have experienced illness - but a dog throwing up every two hours and having diarrhoea for several days..that has been tough. I have been woken up to go outside with her (every two hours for several nights) plus trying to work with her ill and also on no sleep is pretty impossible.
Secondly, my body of course reacted from lack of sleep and I have a very painful mouth ulcer. I saw my dentist yesterday and only time can heal it (together with some antiseptic cream I am supposed to put on twice a day but gag when I put the syringe in my mouth).
I am hormonal and now my period has started - just perfect timing for a few days by a lake and swimming. I also have an upset stomach and nausea on top.
So overall, nothing feels great. I certainly don't feel excited about getting on a plane this evening.
It did get me thinking about WHY - why when I wanted this trip so badly, why when I had invested a lot of money into it, do I have the craziest week ever before I go?
I believe it is fear. Inside this trip scares the hell out of me. An introvert going to stay in a cabin with 9 other women for 3 nights. How will I cope with my jet lag and need for space? And at a higher level, I need to deal with the fact that I don't see myself as "creative soul, entrepreneur and change maker" and that this is maybe were the resistance is coming from. I feel like I am going to a party where all the others are legitimately there and I have sneaked in.
My message here is that fear can do crazy things. I am aware of this feeling and am going to walk head first into the next few days and do something that scares me - and makes me feel very alive. We are often thrown challenges and given obstacles to climb over to get to where we really want to be.
Time to finish off some work, pack and then head off to New York (cue...singing...which ever New York song you prefer and makes your heart sing)
This is the story about how the answer is often so simple and yet doing the work is the hard part - in all areas of our life.
One of my challenges at the moment is that I am unfit, overweight and would like to be living a more healthy life. I find it really easy and also fun to brainstorm on solutions to problems. I am great at researching, an expert on google and can make wonderful drawings on how my life could look like - if you need information or help making a vision board, I am your girl.
I am just not so great at doing the hard work or following through - which is why buying a bike is fun and easy, googling personal trainers makes me feels like I am working on the problem and coming up with excuses as to why I cannot make any classes at a local fitness centre as they clash with work commitments is all just a way of AVOIDING what I know needs to be done. The actual hard work.
Change comes from consistently making small changes in our behaviour whether this is how we eat, what time we go to bed, how we communicate with other people and what exercise we do.
Yesterday I went out on my bike for the first time in two months (and I only bought the bike in June). It was tough. I found it hard. I also loved it and I was so proud of myself for getting out for 20 mins and cycling 5.5km. The fact is no one else can do the exercise for me. I am the one who has to get out there - consistently.
This led me to think about the work I am doing in other areas of my life. Again, it is "easy" to have a coach, have shelves full of spiritual books, post beautiful photos of ginger shots on Instagram but that doesn't take away the need to do the hard work. In the way that I can only get fit by actually cycling, I can only make progress in my spiritual and mental health journey by doing the hard work.
I am all about finding things that work for me. I don't like running so I am going to cycle and walk and go to yoga for my fitness. And what about my spiritual work? Again, I can feel I have been avoiding doing the actual work - as let's be honest, it is icky, hard, uncomfortable - so I am doing things now which both work and I enjoy.
Now I am going for my second bike ride...keep reading my blog to follow my journey.
Books...I love them. These are just some of my books at home and I decided that I am going to start my own book club - and you are very welcome to join in.
My plan for my book club is over the next 12 months is to read at least one of my health/spiritual books each month and share what I have learnt here on the blog.
I have a lot of books - leadership, business, buddhist, health, travel plus a huge pile of novels that I work my way through. What I have realised is I have hours of information and tools right here. I don't need to spend more money - I need to read these, digest the information, do the work, reflect... Sometimes the answers are right in front of us.
Here are the 12 books I have chosen for my 12 month book club:
I am going to pick a book and get started. Book reviews will be shared on the blog.
What books do you have that you haven't read? Let me know if you have read any of these and what it meant to you.
On a journey to live the best sparkling life possible. Brit living in Denmark, mum to two amazing little people, Navy girlfriend, jazz lover, exploring yoga, buddhism and living healthy.